Living Proof

Today, I received an email from a dear friend.  Included in the message was this video and these words, "I know this is completely sappy but this song reminded me of your journey."

After listening to it, I couldn't agree more on so many different levels.

I cried and cried when I watched it.  I don't know if I was crying more from thinking about all God had done in my life or from watching clips from the movie "The Help," which is definitely one of the best movies I've seen in a very long time.  Either way--I cried.  Which, in and of itself is quite amazing.  I've stifled and shoved back tears for a long time.  I've loathed my sensitivity at times.


Just this week I found a document I wrote entitled, "What Are You Afraid Of?"  In it, I detailed the worry and fears of my life.  These lines stood out, particularly, as they were the grand finale of my thoughts.


So, what am I afraid of?  
That if I cry, I might never stop crying.  
But if I don't cry, I will continue to let anger grow inside me. 

The End.  

And...so, I chose to not cry.  And anger did grow inside of me.  

I have been faced with many demons in my life--as Mary J. Blige says in this song: it has been a long, long journey; an up hill climb; a tough fight; and with lots of lonely nights.  Not just with my weight, but with my life and choices I have made and things that have happened to me--things that made me gain all of this weight in the first place.  But, I am living proof that the worst can be behind us and that we can FLY and be FREE!  Amen!!!!

It's Wednesday, which, as you know, means it is weigh-in day.  I have lost 7 pounds this past week, making my grand total in the first four weeks--ta da!--25 pounds! 

Who knew that could even be done?  I feel like I truly can do ANYTHING!  WOO HOO!!!!


The Living Proof*
 It's gonna be a long long journey  
It's gonna be an uphill climb  
It's gonna be a tough fight  
It's gonna be some lonely nights  
But I'm ready to carry on  

I'm so glad the worst is over I can start living now, ooh  
I feel like I can do anythin' and finally I'm not afraid to breathe  

Anything you say to me and everything you do  
You can't deny the Truth  (I added the "T")
Cause I'm the living proof  
So many don't survive  
They just don't make it through  
But look at me ooh I'm the living proof  

Oh yes I am thinkin' back life's been painful  
Yes it took a while to learn how to smile  
So now I'm gonna talk to my people oh  

About the storm oh about the storm  
Oh so glad the worst is over I can start flyin' now oh  
My best days are right in front of me  

And I'm almost there  
Cause now I am free

I know where I'm goin' hey  
Cause I know where I've been oh
I gotta few stars that showin' hey  
I'm gonna stay strong keep goin'  
That's the way that I will  

Nothing about my life's been easy  
But nothings gonna keep me down  
Cause I know a lot more today  
Than I knew yesterday  
So I am ready to carry on 

*Copied from MetroLyrics.com