Week 11 Reflections: Wherever God Leads Me

Okay, this is exactly why I shouldn't weigh myself more than once a week.  ALL week I've been showing a gain.  Well--since the weekend.  And not a little gain.  FIVE pounds.  Now, there's all kinds of womanly things going on and I know my own body to know what happens during that time.  But, I was still wrestling with, "Oh man!  I don't want to show a gain this week, even if it is a false gain.  And especially not five pounds!!!"

But then look what happened.  I was down a pound this morning.  Which actually looked like down six pounds to me, since I was fretting all the way through yesterday about my potential gain this week.  'sigh'

Why do I worry so much?  It is such lost energy.  And I need all the energy I can get.

God's word is clear.  "Do not worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will worry about its own things.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Matthew 6:34

God always takes care of me, even if it isn't in the way I want or expect.  To be honest, I did utter a little prayer this morning before I stepped on the scale.  I said, "Lord, please let this be down!"  But even before stepping on I thought, "It has to be okay if it isn't.  The Lord has something for me in each circumstance. I need to learn to be humble and to accept whatever he sees as best for my life."

This lesson was all over Week #11.  "Julie, do you trust me?"

A few weeks ago I quit my copywriting job that I've done from home ever since my son was born.  Dan and I agreed that the Lord was not going to open new doors for me until we closed this one.  The thought of this seemed ridiculous, since we do rely on my earnings to fill in some of the gaps in our budget.  And, not only that, we hope to send our children back to private school next year--and there is NO money in the budget for that.  Still, we couldn't help but feel like this was the right thing to do.  Was there fear?  You bet!

Before I resigned, I wrote down a few things that I wanted to hold out as an offering to God.  "I want these things, God, but only if you want them for me."

• To write for pleasure again and eventually start working on a novel that has been rolling around in my head.  To get published as a writer.
• To become a health coach for Take Shape for Life--eventually.
• To get back into the performing arts again.  Specifically, to direct.

The day after I sent my official resignation, I got a message from the school where we desire to send our children.  "Would you help to direct our elementary school musical?"

A few days later I got a call from someone saying, "Would you help me write my book?"

A week later I was receiving emails from friends saying, "When you're ready to coach, I'm ready to sign up!  Let's do this!!!"

It's about two weeks since I sent that letter.  And check out what has happened.

So, this blog post isn't so much about food or health or the circumstances in my life this week that revolved around getting to my goal of ultimate health for the glory of God.  Or...is it?

Faith is a huge part of the journey.  Tuning my ear Godward is so important for ultimate health.  Being willing to step out in faith is a big part of what I have had to do--when starting TSFL, when making choices each day, when quitting my job, when signing up earlier than I thought to coach others, when agreeing to direct little kids in the arts, when putting my pen to the paper to write...it all requires faith.  And God's leading.

And, despite fears or brief hesitations at time, I am ready to go wherever God leads me!