Trust Me

Some of my favorite ladies!  My mom, my sisters and me at my sister's birthday lunch back in December.  I've lost a lot of weight since then!  Woo hoo!!!

Oh, I had to laugh this morning.  Which is a good thing, because in the past I would have cried.

This weekend I finally shared what I'm doing with a rather large handful of people who have been part of my cheering squad in the past in one way or another.  I felt ready to do that.  Afterall, these friend know how hard it's been for me in the past--it seems only right that they now celebrate with me in the victory, right?

I honestly try not to weigh myself every day.  Since this journey can't be about the numbers, then there are much more important things to focus on.  But, I'm not going to lie--the scale has a stronghold over me.  We have a love/hate relationship with each other. 

This morning I stepped on the scale and gasped.  I have only gained weight once on TSFL and it was just +1.  Nothing but water weight.  This morning I was UP--more than one pound.  I know it's not a REAL gain, because I've not wavered from the program at all.  It's water.  I can tell because I can't get my ring off my finger, a sure sign for me that I'm retaining fluid. 

But no matter what the reason--I had to laugh.  I FINALLY tell people and then next time I check my weight I'm UP.  Do you see the irony in this? 

I want people to share in my success.  The thing I would probably fear the most is that I would fail and everyone would know.  Being exposed.  Again.

I'm not failing.  I'm very aware of that.

But I think the Lord allowed me to see the bigger number today to say, "This is not about the number, remember?" and "You can't do this alone.  I control the scale, not you."  and "Will you find your success in ME?"  and "Will you boast all the more gladly in your weakness so that Christ's power can rest on you?"

I don't give my weekly weight until Wednesday.  But I had to share today that I must be firm in my resolve that I am never failing if I'm trusting God.  Never.  No matter what people say, or think, or what I think or say.

God is simply saying, "Trust me."  And I'm saying, "You bet!"